This was an excerpt from an exchange of emails I’ve had. Just thought it’d be of benefit.
“Regarding what you said about the use of our limbs and hands and tongue to get what we desire…. I feel you. Every inch of my body has disobeyed Him because of my commands. Wish I could have a new body, a new heart sometimes. And it scares me endlessly when I think about the time my body parts can speak for themselves. What would they say about me? Would my hands say “Dear God, forgive her for doing so-and-so with me. She did use me to help others.”? Would my feet say “Dear God, forgive her for walking towards this place with maksiat as her intention. She did use me to walk to the mosque.”? Would my hair, my neck, my thighs complain about the times I allowed men to feast their eyes on them during my non-hijab days? Would they all have nothing good to tell Him about how I utilised them? :( I remember one time I was crying really badly thinking about this that I actually spoke to my body! I was like, “Please please, just help me on that Day. Be with me and not against me. I know I’ve used you in ways I shouldn’t have.”
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