A penny for your thoughts.
I’ve been thinking long and hard tonight and I stopped myself short and said, “Ameera, your limited faculties of reasoning will not help you get to the Truth or the answer you’re looking for.”
As such, I am posting this question here to hear some of your thoughts. I hope you can help clear some space in my already-crowded brain. If you can refer me to some book, ayat in the Qur’an or a sunnah of the Prophet SAW, all the better!
The question is this: Where do you draw the line between giving up and leaving it to Him? Yes, its a question on tawakkal. Something I’ve grappled with for quite a while.
Once, I had wanted something so badly. I prayed, I put in effort, I tried whatever I could (with the limited resources and capabilities that I had at that time) and I gave my all. And then, I decided that I should just leave it to Him. Things that I was doing did not seem to get me any closer to what I wanted.
When I told a friend that I was leaving it to Him, she said to me, “You’re being too tawakkal.” What is too tawakkal?? How do you know if you’ve done enough?
Anyway, that was then. I did not get what I had wanted but I’ve made peace with it and I actually kind of see that Allah had other plans for me and I’m happy where I am with regards to that issue.
Fairly recently, I made up my mind about where my priorities should be and since then, decisions that I had made would have those as a guideline.
Again, someone commented, “You give up too easily.”
Now I’m really confused. When I’m doing so much, someone says I don’t do enough, another says I should leave it to Him. When I really DO leave it to Him, another says I give up too easily.
How do you define giving up and how do you know if you’re giving up or you’re really sincerely, honestly just leaving it to Him?
I would really, really appreciate if someone could shed some light. :)
Have me in your prayers people. I hope everyone has been doing good!
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