With or without Him
وَهُوَ مَعَكُمْ أَيْنَ مَا كُنتُمْ
“And He is with you wheresoever you may be” 57:4
I think that’s one of the sweetest things ever. :)
I remember it was during one of the Tafseer class & the Ustaz mentioned this line. And I felt uneasy. At that time, I was feeling extremely distant from Him & it wasn’t a nice feeling at all. And so I asked the Ustaz, “Why is it that He is with us wheresoever we may be but we still feel so distant from Him?”.
And the Ustaz said something to this effect: “How many times we are sitting next to our friend and she’s talking about something but our mind is elsewhere. She may be right next to us, closer than everyone else, but we are not with her. Thats how it is with Allah SWT. He is always with us, but we are too busy keeping ourselves occupied with everything but Him. If we were only to turn to Him, we would find that He was always there, all along.”
MasyaAllah, upon hearing that, my heart just broke.
Because I knew that the Ustaz was right, every single word. Thats the thing with knowledge. If the person who says it is sincere or says it with his heart & you open your heart to accept, he could say just one word or just one line but it will touch your heart like nothing like it. Whereas there are many cases where you are confused about something and ask someone about it, but you never get the answer even if they may lecture for 2 hours straight. And sometimes we ask someone something but we don’t believe in our heart that he knows the answer, so you won’t find peace in your heart.
Thats one thing I’ve learnt too. Many people ask just for the sake of asking, but not because they really want to know. Clear your doubts, trust that someone can help you, keep an open mind & an open heart most of all. That way, it is easier for you to gain knowledge.
What I mean with knowledge is genuine knowledge. Certain truths that when said, when heard, has an impact on the one hearing it. If it does not have an impact at all (either in his behaviour or in his lifestyle), that knowledge has not been passed successfully.
And we have no one to blame but ourselves. We are not doing enough to make sure our hearts are clean to receive this knowledge, this guidance. We slander this one, we backbite that one. We are envious of this one, we harbour ill feelings about another. We sin without a second thought. We disappoint Him & are still able to sleep peacefully at night. We are the ones creating the barrier between ourselves & Him. When He is always there.
For how long will we be in this state?
I pray He guides us all to the Straight Path and keep us on it. Amin.